Thursday, 16 July 2015

Last Resort

The first one goes like, “dah tak payah contact lagi.” So I stop. The second one is like, “I hate you, I just want you to go, and don’t you ever wait for me.” And I stop. The third one said, “Sorry I can’t be friends with you anymore, I have choices and you’re not my choice.” Guess what? I stop, again.

How does it feel to be the first choice actually?

I haven’t experience to be the first choice in my life. I never be a champion in whatever I did before in my life. I am a loser who survives with this life. So tell me how does it feel to be on top of the world?

I always want to prove to everyone that I can succeed, but no matter how hard I tried, I always failed, continuously, miserably. I never say that I am giving up, no! I will keep trying and waiting for the time to come. I want to show to all of you that I can be like your first choice, not that early as they did but I will. I’ll prove it, promise. I’ll be better.

When you’re happy, I am the last person you ask to join you, or maybe not. You did not ask. When you’re in trouble, dah tak ada orang nak tolong baru cari. That’s why I called myself ‘a guy named last resort.’

Anyway, thank you so much for all of you. I’ve been stronger after I met you. Every one of you has given me lesson to learn. You prove to me that I shouldn’t trust orang melebih-lebih. You showed me that a woman always needs love and attention from many people, not only your lover right? You showed how easy a woman can fall into others. we won’t last longer if you choose me, you know why?  Cause you’re hesitating in making choice. Life is about making choices; you will face many choices in future, tahu? So good luck!

“Don’t judge a book by its cover.” Never judge a book by its cover, never judge a person by their clothes. Wearing tudung labuh or short skirt does not defined good or bad in them. I called it ‘mask’. Everybody can hide behind their mask.

“You’re too nice and way better than me, you deserve someone better.” It’s too cliché and bullshit, you know. We’re not living in novels or movies, so please. Honesty is needed here. “I hate you, I don’t want you, I have someone else, just go.” Easy. It’s hurt but that’s the truth.

Well, have a good life for the one that got away. May karma doesn’t strike back at you.

Time heals all wounds. Holla!

Awesome to Awesome : abbasmohdtajuddin

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